Here I am looking at the day on this blog post...11/7. One year ago today I woke up knowing that I was going to walk in to that doctor's office, and knowing that I was going to be told I didn't have breast cancer. The hardest part of this for me, was that I had never been so confident about anything in my life. I had never been so sure. I am not sure if it was because I had this notion that there was just NO way I had cancer...NO WAY not me...or if I was trying to throw a blanket over a harsh reality to comfort me for the time being. This day last year is one of the most vivid moments through out my journey. I am not sad today. I thought I would be. I thought I would feel those feelings again, but right now I don't. I wanted to write this blog today to document how 1 year feels for me and next year when I turn 2 I'll do the same...and so on until I am old and gray in my rocking chair. Though there is a lot of time left in this day and my feelings may alter as the day goes on...in this very moment...the present moment...I choose to feel blessed that I have today. I choose to feel blessed that I have been given another year to survive.
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Jacki Arnaud
11/7/2014 05:34:54 am
Hi. I was first diagnosed Nov 3, 2008. Agree, it was the worst news ever. I'm Stage IV non curable Metastatic Breast Cancer. Throughout the past 6 years I have also been through so many of the feelings and treatments you have mentioned. It is a tough road. Reading your blog, I felt like I could of written every word. Stay Strong Pink Sister.
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Amanda Tarase
11/9/2014 02:54:23 am
I don't think I have finished reading one post that hasn't left me in tears and completely blown away at how strong and courageous you are to bare you soul for the sake of helping others.
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